As I exist in all my glory…

Doing my time…

I don’t want any more time…

Without Sarah Anne Ryan…

Here. Human. Physically. Alive.

I cannot say Hallelujah

I don’t feel it

I feel empty

Alone

I do not know if this will every change

I DO KNOW IN MY BONES-

1. There is nothing good in this
2. There is nothing to praise in this
3. If this is part of any entity’s plan, fuck that entity.

I would cheerfully spend eternity separated for such vile.

Burning every inch of my body would be a pleasure as long as it was in a place where the planner is never spoke of.

That’s it, I hold to nothing else.

Last, which not a known –

Fuck the God of Job – regardless of one’s understanding and/or power – treat others with compassion and respect. The God of Job failed miserably.

PS edit 7.31.19 –

I don’t really ‘stand by’ anything I write, rather I reflect on how I came to those words at that time. I hope that I do not stand by much as I currently consider that change, growth, And I hope to grow.

That said, the God of Job/Hebrew Bible seems to change or at minimum changes Her thoughts as demonstrated in dialogues with Abram/Abraham’s.Therefore, I am open to the God of Job either being misrepresented in the book of Job or decided that Her treatment of Job and other humans was wrong.

Same goes for the God of Noah.