4.4.2019
Ten years ago – my heart was breaking, sitting, waiting,
hoping
Seven years ago – my heart was filling, fantasizing about the possibilities
For a moment – I forgot myself
For a moment – I forgave myself
For a moment – I loved myself
For a moment – I loved you
For a moment – I felt loved by you
At this moment – I have no such illusions
Today
My heart is severed
Yet
It continues to pump
Each beat
Keeps my body alive
And
Reminds me
That your body is not
How do I breathe
Why do I breathe
I have given I that I can, but it is not enough
It is not enough to protect, to care, to heal, to be worthy, to love
Now
Silence
Trembling
Shaking
Salty tears
Saturate