Excuse me, pardon me…
What in God’s name are we fucking doing?
How could this be the plan of any omniscient and omnipotent being?
We are not interdependent for our wellness, rather our perception of our interdependency.
This has lead me to be fight vulnerability, to fight openness, to fight dependency
We sit right next to one another,
We sleep right next to one another,
We physical put ourselves into one another.
We hide.
I hide.
I hide.
I hide.
How can this be
Why is suffering and impermanence so central?
Is it only central so the we can perceive the eventual loss as nirvana?
Or give up on our existence here developing a fantastical after life that cannot be disproven or validated?
Sarah, my love. I don’t have much but I can say I am better for knowing, touching, loving you.
I can hold onto that truth.
I am better because you.
I am better because you.
I am lonely without you.
I am broken with you.
And
Your love for me was pure, breathtaking.
Ecstasy.
Sarah.
Bears.
Love.
Daddy.